Forever Embrace

"The embrace of forever"

Once upon of time there was a stay at home mom, who wanted to increase the size of her typical American family. She asked her husband if this was the time and of course, he said Yes, because he not only loved children, he wanted to be a father again.  When realizing that a baby would not come from the wife,  they thought long and hard about adoption. Contemplating, who to ask, the when, the where...it happened. Life! God! and His Time!
Yes, this is our story.

As one ponders the thought of adoption,  please keep in mind the panoramic view of what is ahead and not just the perspective of what is front of your eyes. The view of a child's picture is their "forever portrait".  I thought I wanted a forever baby.  A baby just like the two God gave me from my belly, but there it was... Time.  Time to think. Time to pray. Time to ask all the questions. Time to want our child. Want for what was the best way to receive our child? All for a baby just like the one I think I should have? Or the one I know that was in my heart. The one who was meant to come just for our family?  For some, waiting is not a smoothest of journeys. It can be a sad, excruciating life-altering circumstance that leads you to many slow, fast, ups and downs, on a roller-coaster ride of events.

For us, waiting taught us exactly how many couples share the hardship of creating a new life through their own anatomies.  John and I lived through the agonizing, painful loss of a miscarriage one our twins I carried when pregnant with our oldest daughter. However, there are others who have felt this life altering the state of emotions consistently, over and over again.  We learned that with in vitro, miscarriages, and yes, failed adoptions, it can be hard to recover both emotionally and financially.  Our miscarriage, was true discouragement while waiting on God's perfect timing for our family. I am not saying that I fully comprehend the depth of other's losses, or the eminence void these beautiful families must be experiencing. All I know is that living by faith is meant to fill the void as we wait on His blessings upon our home. God is meant to share our pain. But more importantly, we must find the blessings that He has already given us to permeate as we wait. We must see the Joy in His goodness through the pain.

The greatest epiphany as a couple was the moment that ushered us into our journey. We saw with clarity that if we adopted a baby from the arms of whom are void of a forever soul, we would be taking a cradled heartbeat from the embrace of angels on earth. Who are we to fell led to be so greedy?  Who are we to not listen and purposefully fulfill, what we are called to do? We are to hand-over these sweet babies, to their true forever homes and to the forever arms of the parents who God intended them to cradle as mommy and daddy.

Waiting is the best time to discern through prayer, and God's Word, why we are called.  Waiting means you realize the path you must follow.  Who and not what will innately design you, as you metamorphose into the definition of a "mommy and daddy".  Following your Path to your Purpose and not your fulfillment of want. We realized that God's plan for our home of fostering, was not adoption, but for our family was to be home for children to find their forever. I am truly grateful for this journey knowing that His purpose was made through our obedience to His Will in our lives.

P.S. Although every baby our family has cradled in our home, in our arms, and our hearts has not stayed, they went forever to loving couples not able to have their biological children, yet were birthed into their family just the same. This is our journey's prophecy fulfilled. Our end to their beginning. 

UPDATE: And finally, in 2016 we were given our final two (sixty and sixty-one) a 7 year old girl and her 6 year old brother, who entered into our foster care for the last time. We were obedient to His Will in fulfilled of His Purpose of our family's foster journey. So, after 13 years, we found our "adoption story" and now we have our forever!

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In His Service,

TammyPresident and Founder of +Foster Closet

"Mom to the Broken - Hope to the Fatherless"